People don’t realize how heavy the meeting of two souls is

Perhaps it’s that as an introvert you meet less people, and so you’re less desensitized to the emotions that come with meeting/losing people. Or perhaps it’s this ability to imagine a whole lifetime that will never occur, within the blink of an eye, so you’re able to feel like you’ve lost something that you never even had.

But I feel that most people don’t really comprehend just how existentially serious every meeting is. Even when it’s the most minute of exchanges, two people glancing at each other for a brief second as they pass one another.

That alone is enough for that person to live on in your mind forever. Thoughts of what might have been, what you should’ve said or done. You might not even realize it in the moment, but it’s sort of like when you accidentally hit a pimple that you didn’t know was there, once the person does come to mind, then you find yourself realizing through the sting of it, what they really meant to you.

You can look in a persons eyes and feel the weight the presence of their soul places upon yours.

Picture a bowling ball being placed on a pillow. It slowly returns back to its former shape once the weight is removed, and although the indentation is no longer perceivable, the imprint remains in the heart forever.

It’s ironic. When you realize how complex every soul is, and assign it its real value. On the one hand you might desire to give every soul its due. And yet the pain of losing something so great is even more crippling.