Just really sad.

Yesterday I lost my in office job due to a severe health crisis. In the middle of my crisis, I applied for countless WFH job, interviewed, and got a brand new fully remote job in a matter of 4 days. I did that all while being the sickest I've ever been. And when I lost my current job my partner told me it was okay. It will ne hard but he will pay the bills for the month since my new job starts the 25th. He said it was okay and that he would do this before I couldn't go back in office. And then yesterday it happens and he immediately pulls away from me. He didn't want to even touch me. He left to go to his parents and then texts me saying he needs space, he doesn't know if he wants this anymore, he's not happy, this is hurting him mentally, physically, and financially. And now he isn't talking to me.

He said it was going to be okay. He promised to be here through it.....and yesterday he said we shouldn't even be in this situation in the first place? Like I chose for this to happen? I worked so hard to get a new WFH job.....and I got one and I was so proud. But he doesn't care. One hard month is too much for him and he "needs space to think". I just don't understand why he said all those things just to turn on me once they became real? Now I'm just stuck for a month with no money and unsure what is going to happen with bills and alone. And I'm still so sick and in so much pain.

I'm okay. I'll get through this like I always do. But it's so unfair. I didn't do this to him. It happened to us both and I'm being blamed.