Haven’t drank yet but I brought a water bottle of vodka to my parents today

Bottle contains about 5 shots. Honestly the only thing that keeps me from not doing it is I am trying to lose weight. If it wasn’t for that I would drink rn. I am super vain and gained over 20lbs that I think is from depression drinking over the past few years. This year I have been the most well behaved and have abstained the most out of my whole life but still went on a few week benders.

I am supposed to be helping them clean over here. I really want that drink. Posting for accountability.