I need to have deep affection sex right now

I told him what I was feeling and he was receptive. He isn't here though. It's fucking kill me. I need to kiss him while he's straddling me and bite his lip tenderly, I need stare into his eyes as I lay him down and lick his chest. I need to take his clothes off and put him in my lap. I need to fuck his hole with my fingers while I stare into his eyes and kiss him. I need him so fucking badly it almost makes me want to cry. I love him so much.