30 [M4A] | Northeast Florida | It's my birthday month, and I spend another year unowned...

...And unfortunately, it's mostly my fault. I don't socialize, I hardly reach out, and I second guess everything. Not to mention I hardly have energy after work these days.

But understand my plight if you might: It's seemingly impossible for someone with a long list of mental ailments (Autism, ADHD, RSD, Social Anxiety, Manic Depression, Laziness), to be able to find someone who would want a new "Pet Project" to take under their wing. I've talked with a few folks, but I don't trust others very easily and am pretty good at sabotaging myself if given the leeway to do so.

I'm a tall but scrawny feminine-esque male, who's as curious as a kitten, but does \*\*not\*\* like taking chances without guarantees behind them. I prefer to call it cautious, but while it's stable, it's not a very fun way to live. That's why I'm here, taking this chance now to hopefully reach out.

I spend far too much of my freetime with what I can only explain feels like a waste after-the-fact, so I'm seeking a purpose. I need structure... I need something to exist for. I'm about to be another year older and I haven't changed as much as I'd hoped in the last decade or so; I'd like to be able to fill that time up with being useful to someone.

**In the meantime, I've spent the last year much like the past five:** Keeping myself diapered and cozy, busy with work, and enjoying moments of silence when I'm not, simply trying to get to the next "big event" in my life, whatever it may be. I don't necessarily want to live this way anymore, but I need a gentle push.

If all that sounds like something you're willing to help guide this kitten through, then perhaps I'd like to talk with you!

Maybe it will grow into something more?

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**TL;DR** - Self Sufficient *White Tiger* no longer wishes to be forced to be self sufficient for no reason other than to continue existing. Diapers are non-negotiable, but as long as that's understood, this diapered kitten needs a purpose. Someone to serve, perhaps? Someone to hold the key to his collar for sure.