Can anyone help me

Heyyy!!! I'm a 19 year old boy and new into christianity. I'm was a complete atheïst, but now I'm reading the bible I pray etc, but I find it difficult.. can you help me?

I feel just... empty,stressed, not hungry,ignored, left out, alone and not excepted in this world and I want to find God really bad.. can anyone please help me?

I find reading the bible difficult, does anyone wants to help and study the bible with me?