Please help: I cried and released my pain to the nature and I’ve been stuck ever since

Please help me! I really need some advice and I’m struggling

I’m not really into witchcraft or any of this usually, so I’m sorry if this sounds stupid. I genuinely don’t know where else to ask.

This happened about 2 yrs ago. I went through a really brutal layoff. Our director who had a grudge against us, got all of us laid off because he didn’t like us. The worst part was that he knew exactly what kind of situations people were in. There were single moms, people struggling financially, people who genuinely couldn’t afford to lose their jobs and were at risk of losing their homes. He knew all of this and still did it (only because he hated us not bcz of performance issues)

I was also in a really bad situation at the time. Losing that job completely broke me and my life. I had to leave the place I was living, my whole life got uprooted and I went through so much emotional pain and trauma because of it and even all these years, I still haven’t been able to overcome it.

Even now, I completely break down. I’m literally wailing and sobbing and feel so dissociated from life and I’m still in so much pain and keep thinking about everything that happened and wondering why my life has been so difficult since then. I still haven’t been able to find employment and struggling financially.

During that time, I came across a TikTok saying that if you talk to trees or water and tell them about your pain, nature will take care of it for you and I did it.

I went outside and told the trees and the water everything that had happened. I was so hurt and desperate that I cursed he loses his job too and goes thru the same pain as us.

But now I keep wondering if I did something wrong.
Because since then, that director has gone on to change companies multiple times and his career seems to have grown so much. Meanwhile, I’m still here struggling, unemployed, crying. Still feeling like I haven’t been able to get my life back.

And I’ve started wondering… did I somehow give away my energy when I did that? Did I accidentally do something to myself spiritually? Did I somehow make things worse for myself? Because he’s doing so well and I’m still here

I keep remembering that day and wondering whether I somehow did something that I now need to undo. please tell me if I did something wrong and what I can do to undo it.
I don’t have crystals or special herbs or a lot of supplies. If there is anything very simple I can do at home with water, salt, a candle, prayer, whatever to cleanse or get back my energy please

I just want to feel like myself again. I want to let go of what happened. I want to stop carrying this pain every day. I want to feel like I’m allowed to move forward with my life and I need a job

Please don’t make fun of me. I’m genuinely struggling and I really need some help. ❤️ thank you