I feel so lost in life. I just don't know what to do.

This posts going to be all over the place, so sorry in advance.

I've just gotten home from being on holiday for a few days for gamescon, which was bloody amazing.

I got so much attention and free shit, which is always fun.

But, more importantly I got to hang out with a ton of my friends... Well, the handful of friends I have. Since none of them live in the same country as me, and the ones who do, it takes the same amount of time to travel to another country and meet them there...

I think just the fact that I don't really have any irl friends is eating at me. I have acquaintances, and a couple of friends, but considering we all work different days and such, we can never really hang out and don't get along as well as my best mates, who are all in another country.

I just really wish I could pack up my life and move, but I have a mostly stable job, and I'm petrified of applying for jobs in another country without having any decent qualifications, or an essential job.

I feel really alone in my country, and I just feel like where I live is just full of hateful people, or at a bare minimum the area I live in is just full of xenophobic people.

It doesn't help either that the hobbies and interests I have aren't really as big over here, or at least as obvious.

I just want outside opinions on this, because I feel so torn. Like am I just romanticising the idea of living somewhere else, with cheaper living standards, and the possibility of hanging out with my mates in person on the weekends. Or, would it actually be better if I did just somehow pack up and leave?

I just wish life came with an instruction manual for how to be happy or how to move to another country. I just feel so lost.

It doesn't help that, I'm in a position to possibly purchase a house in my country, and I just feel like this is like the lid being shut on the coffin that keeps me trapped here.