"god i'm such a gigahon ingmi i should just rope"

you haven't been misgendered since you were like 5 months on e

"that's just because everyone is hugboxing me"

why would random people do that?

"i have basically only worn dresses for two years so they probably all just assume based on that"

okay but so what? people are gendering you correctly

"i know that everyone can tell"

your electrologist hasn't shown any signs that she thinks you're not a cis woman and she gets right in your face

"yeah well she's biased because i pay her"

you were called pretty by the prettiest woman you've ever seen and she said your voice was good

"sure but she's a nationalist so i don't want to count that"

yeah okay that one's fair...

a woman in a cafe called you and your mum "ladies" to get your attention

"i was wearing a dress so she was just being nice"

some random guy also called you and your mum "ladies" while you were wearing shorts and a tshirt

"he didn't get a good look at me so that doesn't count"

your electrologist has

"..."

"shut up"

i will when you accept you pass

"never. look at me. i have a larger brow ridge than actual gorillas, i'm statistically taller than almost every woman i encounter, my ribcage is ginormous, and i've got no tits"

and evidently nobody cares. you pass. hell, you've thought you're pretty when looking in the mirror

"ugh fine. if it'll get you to shut up then i'll 'believe' it >!🤞!<"

thank you

A Few Moments Later

"god i'm such a gigahon"

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/uj my brain sucks halp .-.

Also random question but do any other autistic (or allistic I don't discriminate) people treat their brain as kinda separate to themselves? Like I feel like my brain is responsible for shutdowns and anxiety and all that shit and I am the logical one. Is that a normal thing or am I just kinda weird?

Also this post kinda sucks so I might delete later but I got into writing it and it's like 1am and I'm tired and hope other people think I'm not weird so eh