I enjoy purging my food after I eat something too heavy. I know it’s “bad” but it’s so satisfying.

Im addicted to vomiting out my food, I don’t do it all the time but when my stomach feels heavy or I’ve eaten a meal I didn’t enjoy especially, or eaten too much, I’ll definitely vomit it out. It feels so satisfying to just purge the food from my body out and know it’s not sitting in my stomach anymore. I eat because at the time I think I enjoy food, or buy food because I like tasting different things, and then when I eat too much of it I be sick. I said to myself I wouldn’t do this all the time and just eat sensibly but it happened again and to be honest it felt so good to do. I hope none of the weight sticks on my body from what I ate and purging it out straight after worked… this is my confession. I love doing it. I know people are going to say get help but honestly I don’t want help, I’m fat, it’s not like I’m wasting away. And I know the damage it does to your throat and teeth but I think it won’t do damage if I don’t do it all the time. It’s addictive though. Does anybody else do this?? Don’t copy me if it’s a bad thing to do guys. I just felt like I wanted to confess.