30M4F Tennessee/ online

I'm a 30 yo m living in middle Tennessee and honestly, I'm looking for what I don't believe is real anymore. I've always wanted a relationship and love kinda like the movies but I feel stupid for thinking it could happen. Someone please renew at least the hope that I might find it some day. Also not going to go into detail but as a fair warning I'm probably going into what is going to be the darkest chapter of my life.