Need edging advice (20F)

Okay so I've just made a return to edging after a two month break of daily orgasms (they were honestly not as satisfying as edging, edging is soo much better) but I'm struggling. Every time I try to edge, even if it's just once, I end up ruining without meaning to.

I'll rub, stop right before I know I'm going to cum and my pussy will just squeeze really hard on her own and take me over. I don't feel the pleasure I should so I know it's not a real orgasm, but afterwards, my sex drive plummets to zero and I have no desire to play or touch or edge and that really really sucks because that edged out, fuzzy feeling is what I like to leave my sessions with.

Have any of you experienced something similar? How did you deal with it? I'm grateful for any and all help, thank you💖!!