My mind keeps showing me dreams

So hi! I'm new to this subreddit and general reddit stuff. First of, I'm not new to manifestation since I've been manifesting random stuff since I was in Junior High School (I'm a Degree holder now btw) but I am new to manifesting an SP. So uhmm anyways, I've been manifesting my SP which is I won't refer to as my "ex" because why not? I'm still with him duh, but yeaaah throughout this journey I kept crashing out and then detach and then work my SC then go back to the same cycle all over again until my mind starts having these weird thoughts that there's a 3P and all of that stuff. Now mind you, I'm doing EFT tapping while affirming 1-2 affirmations to make myself calm down whenever these thoughts come through or just let it flow first then I'll say "That is not the story" but I kept getting those thoughts until my mind showed dreams of this 3P and my SP. I am actually aware of what I should be doing but my mind won't just cooperate somehow, and for some reason I've developed this feeling of resenting my SP. I am just so confused at this point lol, any advice for this?