Advice for rabbit vibrators

Hello!

38F here :) Having used the same two types of vibrators basically forever I decided to be adventurous and try a rabbit. Normally I have always had a bullet and a wand.

##a bit of context ##
For the last two years or so I haven’t been dating or having sex at all - just a personal choice to stop fucking any one who was hot and willing; and try to meet people for friendship instead.

Now I have met someone who is thoroughly off limits. Although we both clearly are ravenous for each other - I’m his boss AND he’s married.

In classic fashion, being constantly around someone I can’t fuck has made me insatiably horny and I need something inside me to help my fantasies about him seem more realistic.

When I’ve had sex with men I’ve always had to take it slow to get them properly inside me. They all say in supremely tight but - I never know if that’s just dirty talk or if it’s true? When I’ve fucked women we’ve only ever used my toys and nothing like a dildo or a strap on.

So now I have this rabbit and I tried for so long with lube and I couldn’t get it more in than an inch. I gave up on it and made myself cum with my wand, and went back to using the rabbit when I was more wet but still couldn’t open up enough to fuck myself with it.

Has anyone else had this problem? Is there a specific way to position yourself when you’re alone with it? Please help! I’m so desperate