Am i right to feel like when I'll move out?

For context, I'm a teen and I've been struggling emotionally and emotional numbness(y'all can tell me if I actually have the mentioned issues).(This is mainly abt my father)So a quick summary of my earlier posts, me and my father used to bond at least somewhat well in my childhood. But in my teenage years , I wasn't comforted, supported when I was emotionally vulnerable to him(I was either called dramatic or sensitive) it may have happened for 1 or 3 times( he didn't even show any care to listen to me when I was talking abt how they won't support my dreams and also crying btw) but after that I never wanted to speak to him abt these things and focused on my freinds. Now since 1 or 2 years after that he had also been busy at work , and would barely spend time with me..the environment around me depended on whether he was frustrated from his co workers and decided to yell at me or talk to me in an ungentle way cause of that or if he was happy and wanted to have fun. Almost since April I would be talked to in an unkind or frustrated way whenever I would come from tuition and wanted to go to the bedroom cause he would be working and would be frustrated. I would cry daily as he had also put me in a yoga class that I didn't want and eventually moved on ,idk if I actually fell out of love with him or my brain turned off my emotions to protect myself as he has also suppressed my emotions when I cried by saying' I'll give u a real reason to cry' and he even told me that he'll "beat me to death" just cause I didn't wanna do the class he wanted me to do. He also has selective memory and thinks he did nothing that caused he distant in our relationship.

Now 2 months ago (I think) he became physically injured (I don't wanna share personal info so let's just use this term) and suddenly craved for me to be his mentally supporting daughter ( even though that role shouldn't be reversed and he never did that for me) who is very loving and affectionate. I obviously can't just forget whatever treatment he has been giving me..not only just that today he called me inhuman cause I didn't know what to say as he laughed a bit and said how physically hard this is for him and I wasn't affectionate...? Like hello? I get that I act distant and cold but that wasn't from choice and out of nowhere...Due to him I've suppressed my emotions so much and I've even sometimes neglected my friends by not spending time with them and in yesterday's paper I had almost run out of time to finish my exam paper but still wasn't feeling horrible for it(I love academic validation)..that too while writing the paper I couldn't even remember some answers cause of memory loss from emotion suppression(again due to him)..and I also was walking fast afterwards and avoided social interactions again (maybe cause I wanted space idk?). I'm honestly tired...I tried 3 times to talk to him b4 to get family therapy or at least get me therapy..mind u he isn't unaware abt mental health.HE KNOWS WHAT TRAUMA IS..Can apply it to himself as he goes through hard times(still didn't take therapy and fixed his own trauma btw)...but couldn't get his own kid therapy?I already feel nothing and I am also bit frustrated around him sometimes cause he calls me such things and even compared me to a random kid on vlog abt how' he wanted a kid like that' and I felt nothing abt it even though it should sting considering the fact he previously had previously compared me to a guy in my building who I had bad bond with and he doesn't even understand my beliefs.I can't even feel anything anymore...like I try to but still..so for above reasons I didn't show him any care..what do yall think? Also I'm curious do y'all think I'm at least somewhat emotionally aware?