So boom i guess

Everyone was sharing their story here so here's mine.

I was 14 at that time, at a family house with Everyone there. It was chill, the adults and parents were all at one room and us the kids were like scattered. So we had a rooftop at our house. All the kids gathered there and i was alone in my floor. My guy cousin, 2 years older than me, came into the room and told me to go upstairs to join them at the rooftop. I agreed, put on my slippers and walked upstairs. The thing is.. when i was going upstairs he kept SA'ing me, touching my butt. I thought he was rushing me or pushing me to go upstairs, of course i was a child and couldn't understand what was going on. Then i tripped because i was practically running there. He 'helped' me by doing it again and raising me to my feet and i said "that's why we don't rush people." So when we got there, everyone had spent time just chilling together until we just glued our faces to screens. Mind you, my older brother, his younger sister and two of our girl cousins were there. I was also glued to my screen. I was standing, leaning on a wall. Then he walked up to me and did it again. He kept touching my chest and groping around.

That moment i froze. My heart sank to my feet, because i couldn't, didn't want to believe it. He was shading me from everyone so they couldn't see. But they didn't notice him standing weird next to me. I literally ran off to my brother, i had the chance to ask for help.. i didn't take it. I couldn't say anything because i was so scared of him (my cousin) snapping at me. So i kept my lips glued. Then later on, we went to one of our cousin's floor and we stood in her balcony. The space there was tight. He intentionally passed right behind me to press his.. thing.. against my butt. Again i didn't say anything. After i declared that we go downstairs to our rooms or join the adults. I grabbed a skate board and i guess a bottle or smth and my phone. My hands were full. He ran behind me when i was alone at the stairs and hugged me from behind and groped my chest again. This time, we were standing outside a room of one of my ants, she saw it happen for a fraction of a second. This time i acted fast and shrugged him off and ran downstairs. The next day i decided to tell my mom about it all. But she wasn't there when i woke up. Then i went to my cousin and bawled my eyes out and told her everything, later i hear her mother (the ant who saw us) calling me to ask me about what happened then i told her the first and last part of the story. I told her how he grabbed my butt on the stairs while we were going upstairs and only the scene that she saw in front of her stairs. Then later on i told my mother, i kept everything a secret because i know how worried she would be about me, i only told her about the butt touching. Then i asked her if she'd tell my father but she said that she couldn't say something like that to my father because he would freak out at his brother, my uncle, my guy cousin's father. So i told me mother as if i came to a conclusion that if i told my father the whole family would come apart. And she only said "right." Then i also decided not to tell my brother because he and my guy cousin are the only boys in the family and they're close, of course.

This is the end of the story. I feel like i should share it because i can't tell anybody about this. I don't need advice. I just needed to let it out.