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Life is hard, and somehow, every day feels harder.

Sometimes you reach a point in life where you have no idea what happens next. You have no clear direction. You keep moving because stopping feels like giving up.

I’m at this point now.

The person I loved tried to destroy me. My family has no idea what I’m going through. Every day, I go outside, talk to people, work, smile, and act like everything is fine.

But I’m not fine.

Sometimes I wish I never made certain choices. I wish I never chose the person I chose. I wish I had walked away when I first realized things would never work.

I always wanted struggles in my life. I wanted experiences that would make me stronger, help me grow, and teach me from my mistakes.

But I never wanted this.

So much of what’s happening now feels outside my control.

Some days, I don’t even know if I’m strong enough to keep going.

The hardest part is feeling like nobody cares. I reached a point where I had suicidal thoughts. I called the police and told them. I expected someone to take me seriously. Instead, I was told to book an appointment through a service, and the appointment was weeks away.

How bad does someone’s situation have to become before someone takes them seriously?

I don’t need someone to fix my whole life. I need guidance. I need somewhere to start.

Life doesn’t come with a map. Nobody tells you which decision will save you and which one you’ll regret.

So for now, I keep trying.

I keep moving.

I keep holding on.

I don’t know what happens in the end. I don’t know how long this chapter will last.

I only know I’m still here.