Boyfriend (18M) has habits and fetishes that make me (18F) deeply uncomfortable

I (18F) dont really like posting about my life whatsoever online but I have yet to find anyone else with my shared issue. My boyfriend (18M) likes to cause a scene in public constantly. He has acted this way even before knowing me well, so I am aware that this is not to humiliate me directly in any way. He often shouts at random people “Hey you man, have a great day” or starts yelling some random quote and then turning to said stranger and going “That guy gets it”. I do find this funny occasionally but this is constant and embarrassing to me.

I dont mind if he does this with himself or his friends, but with me I am always left shaking and begging him to stop which I think he finds me playfully asking him to even when I am as upfront about the matter as possible. He also shouts at people at night, women walking alone especially which I have explained is a horrible thing to do, even if you’re just shouting nonsense.

This would all br tolerable if he didnt shout things like. “She beats me! Shes always hitting me but I like it.” to EVERY person we seem to walk by. He will also do this but scream “Shes pegging me” or shouting sexual comments about me in public. I absolutely hate to be seen in any humiliating manner as I try my hardest to appear well respected. Ive torn though my skin until ive bled in public multiple times gripping my own arm just to mask my tears whenever he does this. It had come to the point I am terrified of going out in public with him. This is all ironic because I was “the loud one with no social anxiety” back in my hometown with my friends. I have had conversations with him over it and he has promised me hed never do it again but he still continues to.

My boyfriend also has fetishes that I dont share, I wont get to deeply into them but he is into vore which I definitely am not. I was a commissioned writer previously so the most I will do is maybe write an occasional story for him and read it but other than that I absolutely get nauseous when participating or thinking about that. Its a complete metal disconnect for me and I absolutely just try to mentally remove myself from the situation in any sexual matter because I know it pleases him. I told him I have vomited just trying to treat him with any vore related content (I have an absolutely horrible fear of parasites, things living in me, pregnancy, ect which obviously dont line up well with vore as a whole).

He told me he doesnt want to make me uncomfortable so he promised to never bring it up again which I explained its fine you enjoy it I am happy to provide you with writing because thats something that apart of myself, but this was completely disregarded or forgotten as a whole as were back to him brining up vore to me every night or in any sexual situation we might be in. He wants me to tell him what I would do to him and it brings me to the brink of tears because no matter how much I explain my distaste I really do love him and want him happy.

There are also some fetishes he has that arent nearly as bad but still make me moderately uncomfortable and ive spoke about that but are still continued.

Hes an amazing man through and through, I really do love him. I wish I wasn’t brought to tears almost daily over things like this. I feel like a horrible person but every time I try to speak up I feel its forgotten or I simply love him too much to make him feel bad.

I have no idea what to do. Do I stay with him or leave? I seriously dont want to at all but it kinda feels like a brick wall. Im constantly so spaced out around him because I am torn between loving him and knowing that I feel like im on constant edge.