Recreational use tolerance

What are some good rc’s that I can use recreationally because my tolerance is way too high. I can take 10 Xan’s and not black out, I’m prescribed 3mg of kpins a day but like 1-2mg sustains me daily but I have a habit of taking more then I need once a week or so to relax.(my substitution for alcohol) my kpins don’t even get me recreational value even if I take like 30 of them. They get me relaxed and a nice buzz but I want to be like mentally impaired like fucked up. Xan’s are a bit better when it comes to this but I need to take too many. Any strong rc recommendations? And would Valium be better than kpins to take recreationally for the muscle relaxant properties?