want to explore bi side of myself more

hi m(22) here from mumbai,

so I've been yk wanting to explore this side and i have given blowjobs a few times and i've absolutely loved it but then i used to overthink and i stopped everything and I've been on grindr for so long I've barely met anyone partly maybe because I'm a little bit on the chubbier side but there are very very less choices and there are a lot of things i do wanna try,

I've also not come out so so it feels nice talking about it.