I’m still tired.

I’m not like attention hungry or something I just don’t know who to talk to about what just happened with me, in a previous post I talked about a situation with a women that I was texting. After I posted that a women claiming to be 20 dmed me said she wanted to talk to me over dis im thinking in my head “wow a women in my age range being this nice to me after I just vented on the internet” I added her we call I say something and she gets off after hearing me. At first I’m like “okay probably busy or something” but then she goes on to ignore then unadd me…

Like is it cause of how I sound? Was it cause I’m black? I never said anything about my age or race to her but maybe she thought I sounded it? I just don’t understand this whole interaction made my day 10x worse than I’ve already felt it all makes no sense cause why me?? Why go out your way to be nice to someone struggling with what I’m struggling with and do that?? Why does the world or god choose to let me go through these types of situations? I’m I really that unloveable? No matter what I do how I make myself I’m I just bound to feel this way every week, days, months all my friends around me say I’m kind, a gentle giant, I don’t even think that at all but everyone around me thinks this. People say what you put in is what you get out if I’m kind and nice to others >!why do I not get that in return?!<

This makes me so upset I wanna cry cause someone was being nice to me only to just make me feel way worse than what I originally felt. I wish they never even reached out at all at that point.