unhealthy obsession with looks

I’m going insane I have an insane obsession with my looks. Not in the looksmaxx way or anything specifically, but its to the point where if i dont have makeup on i won’t leave my home. If i haven’t slept enough and think i look tired and therefore ugly i won’t even go to school. I spend alotttt of time and money on my makeup and clothes.

Im alternative and enjoy being it so it’s not like im spending time tryna look more typically attractive but i need to look cool and different at all times. I spend so much money on clothes it’s insane because its not like i can afford any of this.

I dont even throw my trash if i’m not wearing makeup. Last time i ordered food i got ready incase the delivery driver saw me. I live off attention and being called pretty and i obsess when i go outside and don’t get compliments or smiles from strangers and nitpick why that is and why im getting uglier.

please dont be mean