Mindless edging

Ive been edging for too long. I didn’t even realise ive been humping my roommates pillow all this time 😭 i hate this have you guys ever got caught edging or masturbating? Its like you keep edging all day and you literally loose awareness for the day. Idk now i feel attracted to her i can feel her scent on the pillow and im loosing my mind especially since i was out with her all day