I’m tired and my skin burns but I want to do more

I’m tired, my arm burns but I want to keep going. I’m usually someone who can’t fucking stand people being negative and that plays into a lot of why I’m I this situation so I’m posting here in an attempt to render it to a containment zone of sorts. I have been assaulted nonstop by trigger after trigger and no one cares about the boundaries I tried to set to avoid them. I have done everything to get better but my body is so resistant to treatment they’re thinking of sending me off to a research facility. I’m done I’m so fucking done I do not want to keep fucking going