extreme hunger is ruining my life

it’s been 10 days since i decided to give into my hunger and i’ve now been hit with all consuming debilitating eh and i’m becoming suicidal at this point. i’m just eating endlessly even when i’m not even hungry and i’m so bloated and puffy. i feel extremely lied to from everyone preaching about all in recovery and honouring your extreme hunger. this is genuinely horrible & i can’t stop even if i wanted to because my mind/body won’t let me. my mental health has never been worse i don’t know what to do anymore.