Masochist

I’m not freaked out all the time, this isn’t what I’m asking for. I need someone to control me. Tell me what to eat, when too, how I should look and feel, live. My life is going in so many fucking directions and it’s killing me. The only things I’m used to is thinking negatively and I’m tired. However I’m not looking for a pussy. Genuinely hate me please think of me as disgusting. I’m not worth your time or effort in making me into a normal person. I need an actual sadist not just someone who thinks hurting women is fun and it’s all about sex. I want someone who will tell me how to be a “normal person” while telling me they think I don’t deserve to breathe. How you’d hurt someone as pathetic as me if you got the chance