Deep in that facade, in the card they show and make everyone happy like they used to be in the now tired kingdom, lies the monarch who yearns something out of touch like love, a heart that was never fully satisfied no matter how hard they tried. Something that knows deep down that, as soon as they show their own reality, the public they made will be away like if was made of dust, even though now, it's to late to hide it down.

If you couldn't tell, yes, yumes, even though I actually love Caine and Verity, I did a facade of, you know, making memes, making you all happy, and giving you hope in everything, even in doing the smallest thing in supporting you all when no one was there for you as giving appreciation to your posts in all the subs I am. All when deep down, I was.. slowly draining myself in this. I didn't even felt happy doing this, I didn't felt like being that good, it was like I was lying not only to you, but myself, because do you know how hard was to keep my sanity when I probably don't have at this very point? 

And for what..? Nobody asked me to do it, I choose to do it, I choose to make this facade for you all, I choose to drain and ignore myself just for attention and some stupid likes, all of this, just to be loved when nobody did it as I wished to, all because of what I am truly.. that's the irony, that's my own joke nobody ever got, just I.. 

... I'll probably be away from Reddit for a while, a big while.. I don't even know why I am saying that, nobody will ever miss me anyways, just my memes or scenarios, but that's it.. I'm sorry for this, maybe I'll be back when everything is better, but for now, I just hope this can be slowly healed as I wish too.. I don't if that wish will be real, but I'll try, I'll do it as I can I guess.. 

Deep in the facade of the jester..