Isolation

Im 26 and have no friends or family, I struggled with substance abuse and was in and out of foster homes and treatment centers up until about a year ago. I have a probation officer because I got into trouble when I was drinking alot and in an abusive relationship, I see her about once a month and I recently stopped seeing my other mental health worker because she threatened to call emergency services on me while I was having a mental breakdown, I told her I wasnt suicidal, I just didnt want to be here anymore, and she escalated my mental breakdown by immediately threatening to call emergency services. So now I only have a PO, I am supposed to be starting EMDR therapy soon, and I got myself a career counsellor and theyre going to look into volunteer opportunities for me, but other than that I have nothing going for me. I live alone with my kitty, and dont have any social interactions for days in between when I see my PO, this is so painful, Ive been abandoned by my family, all my relationships have been abusive, and as badly as I want to get out of this rut, I dont really feel like participating in life because all its ever taught me is pain.