Bear guys, can I get some honest opinions?

So, I'm a young gay guy. Lately, I've been looking into bear culture, and it describes me pretty well. I've been struggling a bit with how I feel about my body and I was hoping to get some advice from people in the bear community. I kinda feel very uncomfortable with my body (because my parents don't support me. I have 94kg) and I wanted to gain some muscles. I'm pretty hairy but I want to have more, so I'm trying to let it grow.

I'm feeling so lost right now, and I was hoping someone could point me in the right direction. Thanks to anyone who took the time to read this. I'd really appreciate any advice or personal experiences you can share.