How should I go about having my first?

So I’m like freshly 18 and all I’ve been wanting is to have my first time(idk if this will get me banned or something so sorry) I’ve known for a long time that this is what I want to do and I want to gain experience or at least lose my v card before I go to college.

I probably am hyping it up in my head only to be super disappointed but like I don’t really care…? I probably am gonna find some guy on grindr and meet up with him and I know this definitely isn’t the best way to go but I need some input and/or validation/support🥹