intense dissociation at work

hey everyone - i haven't worked consistently since march 2024, but the few times that I have attempted to, have went flat. I tend to dissociate really intensely at work & it will usually develop into depersonalization.
i took a job offer at a warehouse , i start on Tuesday except when i attempt to work w/o weed i cycle through restlessness , agoraphobia, and terror.. each hour feels like 4x longer.
as of January 2026, i stopped smoking weed after 3 years of daily use.
does anyone else use weed at work? i don't use it at all anymore- but it assisted in not feeling like the walls are caving in/that i'll be prosecuted if i quit on the spot.. torn because I definitely need a job atm but signing up for a degree of dissociation that is (only able to be navigated with external substance) for my independence is a hard trade off. im really struggling, you guys.. anything helps