post-vacation has me stressed and guilty

i just had a 2 night trip away with a couple friends and broke my consistent omad and drank a lot and feel like a total failure. i spent every second feeling guilty and embarrassed and stressed about eating but it’s so hard not to when i’m constantly going to restaurants and bars with friends and don’t want to make things awkward. i’m home now and just want to fast for days before i even dare to look at a scale again ):