Can anyone relate to this? HELP!

Hi, I am creating this post in attempt to gather knowledge from this community. This is my first post on reddit so bare with me.

27F. I have been struggling with my mental health since I was about 8. Severe anxiety as a child, what I believe to be OCD formulated when I was 11 or 12. As I got older I developed depression. At 19 I got help in therapy. At 20, I had a psychotic break during Covid and honestly haven’t felt the same since.

i am on Zoloft, I’ve tried to get off it but it seems my brain can’t handle it. right now I feel so disconnected from everything. I don’t get excited about movies or shows like I used to. I can’t lose myself to a song without my brain replaying how much focus I have on the negative.

I don’t enjoy time with my boyfriend or friends even though I want to. it’s like I’m doing everything right but I just can’t FEEL anything without thinking I’m a bad person or my usual negative though loops.

im going through the motion and have suffered so badly, I just have no clue what to do. I have a therapist currently and she knows about this, it just seems like I keep going in and out. I don’t feel myself getting better, like I can’t remember anything and have brain fog. Can anyone out there please offer advice?

I want to get better so badly. I just have no clue. A name to what’s going on, or even a story to relate to. PLEASE HELP!