little things like this make so much sense now

my mom was the kind if mom where my friends or peers would be like “wow your mom is soOOoo amazing she does this or xx for you” (idk things like picking me up from youth instead of me needing to catch a ride stuff like that)
i would nod my head like “yeah for sure!”
but inside i was like “huh???”
to the outside world she was an all star self sacrificing mom but my life was actually a combination of silent treatments, privacy breeching, yelling, no apologizing, conditional love, pinning siblings against eachother, isolation ect !!!
At the time (late teens ) i was so confused to why i felt like that. i felt like maybe i was a difficult ungreatful b of a daughter 😁

After many years of realizing what i went through was not normal /okay i can see now , it wasnt that i wasnt seeing something they were. THEY were not seeing the truth behind this amazing mom persona