Getting so lost in the grief I forget I am literally on bail...

Really struggling today, wanting to reach out. Feeling very very hopeless and like I really wont meet someone else. Or that she isn't coming back.

I know the no contact is there for a reason. But it's incredibly painful. The pain is so overpowering that it leads me to completely forget that i am even on bail after a previous ex before this one had me arrested on false allegations from this weekend just gone.

I could literally be charged with criminal offences next month. And i don't even care. Because im grieving this woman.