Did anyone miss their parent even more, when becoming a new parent yourself?

I gave birth to a healthy, beautiful baby girl recently, she is 10 days old. It’s so surreal becoming a first time parent, I feel so much unconditional love for her already. Seeing my partner gaze and love his daughter made me think this is how my dad must have felt when I was born and in that moment I just wanted to be a little girl again and have my dad here, watching the love and care that my mum has given to me and my daughter and not being able to share this excitement with my dad is hard, seeing my partners dad become a grandfather and my partner being able to share this moment with both his parents, whereas I couldn’t just seems so unfair.

My dad suddenly passed away last year and all I could think of is how everyone is getting to meet her but my dad is missing out, that my daughter will never meet him and he would have loved and doted on her, I loved my dad so much. It’s really hard as my sister is also expecting next month. I can only dream about my dad now getting to one day meet her in the afterlife.