My husband pointed out our mutual friend was into me. He was right. Now I can’t stop craving her.

Hello. F32 here. A little about me. I’ve been married 10 years and for most of that time we never did anything outside of our marriage. We still love each other deeply and do a lot together. We’re definitely an outdoor adventure couple, hiking, coffee shops, the gym, kayaking, all of it.

A while back my husband mentioned that a mutual friend of ours seemed interested in me. She’s a little older, cute, and had always been a bit flirty, but I never really took it seriously until he brought up some of the comments she’d made. It definitely implied some interest. I had assumed she was straight as she has 2 kids. My husband and I talked about it openly.

I had thought of myself as somewhere between bicurious and quietly bisexual. Before this, the only experience I’d had with a woman was kissing some girls a few times in college. It was just for fun and I knew tons of straight girls who did this. The idea of more had always lingered in the back of my mind, but I never acted on it. I didn’t realize how much I might actually want it until it started happening.

Then something finally happened with her, and then again a couple more times after that. Haha. A whole new world opened up. There’s this mutual understanding of how we’re making each other feel that hits differently than anything I’ve known. Soft in some moments, intense and hungry in others. Making her feel good and feeling her do the same for me has been honestly addictive.

What’s surprised me most is how much I crave women now. Not just the physical part, the softness, the way another woman’s body moves against mine, the way she smells and tastes, but the specific feeling of being wanted by a woman. The way her eyes linger on me. The way she texts little photos and warm compliments that make it clear she’s thinking about me. The way she reaches for me. There’s something deeply validating and incredibly erotic about being desired by another woman that I didn’t know I needed. I catch myself wanting more of that attention.

It’s still new enough that I get nervous every time. I find myself looking forward to her messages more than I expected, getting a little rush when I see her name light up my phone. I love knowing she’s thinking about me, wanting me. There was one night that we spent just facing each other with nothing on. Our legs were touching and our eyes were just locked onto each other. It was incredible just watching her get off to me while I watched her so closely. In that moment, we didnt even need to touch and I ached so much at that thought. She definitely knows how to satisfy me when she goes down on me as well. Never had anyone eaten out both ends of me at once. I had to bite the pillow. I came harder than I expected and then felt almost shy afterward, like I’d been completely seen.

We’ve kept it between us so far. My husband is aware, but not involved. It still surprises me a little that he’s so supportive. I haven’t given him every detail, but he is actually very turned on by it. There was some initial guilt even though he encouraged it and in the way that guilt was also a huge turn on. Ive been kind of back and forth about it.

I keep turning over the same questions in my head. Was this always in me, sitting quiet until someone finally looked at me the right way? Or did she unlock something that wasn’t fully formed before? A few times together haven’t given me a clear answer, but they’ve made a few things clearer. I want her confidence. I want the way she takes charge without making me feel small. I want the careful attention she pays to what makes me react. And yes, I want the admiration. It feels selfish to admit, but being the focus of that kind of desire from another woman is addictive. Im also slowly learning how to give it back to her in the same way.