How to deal with such parents?

18F, I will try to keep the context as short as possible. But its still a long story. I'm here to seek advice from adults who've been through similar situation. I have talked with my friends but they can't help much.

So i will give sum background info

In my family I have parents, a older brother who is mentally abnormal and a grandma

My dad is always stubborn about building a business empire. And cuz of it we never had financial stability because he doesn't know how to run a business.

My mum is a housewife but also handles dad's business. They own a local transport company.

And now I'll give sum info about me

I'm reappearing for 12th and preparing for CLAT.

Now since childhood my dad was very abusive towards both of us but he was more abusive towards my brother. Mum never stopped him, she would just stand aside keep yelling but won't come in between. But that is bearable

Fearing my parents would scold or get angry on no matter what i do is common, cuz of it i never told them about school bullying, molestation.

after 2020 a lot of things changed, I hit puberty and I started feeling even more lonely cuz of lockdown and I developed phone, corn and social media addiction which i did overcome later on but in last 1 year i relapsed.

Till here everything sounds normal.

Things went wrong when one night in 2021 My dad SAd, I don't wanna do in any deep details, But I told mum many times but she never seemed to believe me either she blamed me or did nothing about it. Basically Neglected after that he kept focing me for 3 yrs and then in 2024 sept he graped me 3 times, And about which i told mum but She still did nothing. but after that i built walls against my parents.

Now due to lockdown and financial crisis, I stopped attending school after 7th. and never resumed regular school. I only gave exams after self studying at home with just books and Yt. Then i dropped out and switched to 12th and took sci but It wasn't easy to self study so I failed miserably. And i need to reappear with new subjects from ART stream.

Now Here is the issue

Recently they found a pic of me a spicy one, cuz I love clicking my spicy pics. For context I’ve always been curious about sex but never had sexual intention for any guy till i was 13, even tho i knew about sex and stuff. After the incident (SA) i become Hypersexual and got addicted to lustful attention i got from guys, i still love it. Which might make me seem like a s/ut but idc. Cuz i don’t think a guy can love me without lust for me and even someone did i won’t feel that love… so after they asked me about pic and beat me. I bluntly told them the truth, That i'm hypersexual and love clicking pics and along with it i told mum that even dad clicked my nud3 pics. And at that moment he lost his temper and tried to throw a brick at me. 

Well, I try to keep everything hidden, secret but yeah i still get caught, when i do i can’t lie as i suck at lying.

Currently they are giving silent treatment, and treating me as if i don’t exist…
I simply finish all the chores, do my laundry, cooking and studying.

I don’t know if they know but i have to pay for my CLAT form before Oct. and I even tried for a job of teacher, pay was low as i’m a 12th fail. But they didn’t let me work cuz I might start talking to boys outside. That was my mum’s response when i ask WHY
Now with all the anxiety and stress. I struggle to study on my own as self studying is hard. and i also got terrible headaches from stress

just day before yesterday I tried to KMS.

Yesterday I got to know about a Skill training Program in an engineering college, my friend studies there. Its 3 month long and has guranteed employment. But my parents not ready to send me... EVEN WHEN ITS ALL FREE OF COST cuz its govt sponsered.

Now I don't know what should i do, as I'm in urgent need of money to pay for 12th reappearing and CLAT fees. and I want to get out of this place because I"m tired of being treated as if I'm the only wrong one after everything