I am a 1st year BA student Need advice for Upsc prep as i am a beginner

I joined ranfom local degree college I joined purposely cuz wanted to give time to upsc prep took pcm in 12th ,I will give attempt in year 2029 or 2030 ,I have taken 3 year prarambh batch ,besides from upsc I m practicing 12th maths so I don't loose touch with maths nd can have ssc nd banking exams as backup options, also since I studied in good convent school then coming to local degree college made my mom sad but I still kinda believe in my decision. I want ur advice for prep , intellectual growth nd mental health ,also I have no one to guide me regarding this journey so I really need advice as of now I m following syllabus nd concepts according to online batch