I really don’t know what to do. Porn addicted as a 14 y/o girl I feel like a failure

It’s making me feel horrible. I do it every night for almost two years and I can’t stop! To be honest at the beginning I thought that it wasn’t even that bad when I was so desperate to even do it when others were asleep next to me. It’s embarrassing really. The real reason why I’m feeling so helpless now is what I just watched, some loli stuff. And I feel so bad for having enjoyed watching it’s not like I can make the fact that I touched myself to it undone. Completely against my own ethics. Don’t know anymore. Not like I can ask for help, my parents are strict muslims HELP ME PLEASE!!