am i going crazy

The tittle is kinda catfishy, sue me

I’ve been into spiritual stuff for some time now, which has included tarot cards and tarot readings. Now, I am also stupid and young, so I’ve been doing stuff the tarot purist recommend against, like doing readings in by bed, only cleansing my deck with sound, doing readings in general yk.

Yesterday I was doing a reading to a fried at school, everything went fine, but tonight I dreamt a quite ugly dream, I had already dreamt it before so it freaks me out a bit more.

It was about a witch (very fitting of course) that tormented me. The dream started in a different way this time for what i remember but it eventually became the same. A witch tormented me and my witch grandma helped me, my real life grandma is quite religious so idk why in my dreams shes like a powerful witch (???, also, it’s not really my grandma, like in the dream I know it is yk but she does not look or talk or whatever like my grandma.

The last time i dreamt this it progressed like:: intro, problem, resolution. But this time i woke up without having solved the problem (no it was not at 3am it was actually at 5am (i don’t usually wake up at this hour i don’t have any real reason to do so)) and that kinda worries me a bit yk

Also, this time around the dream contained stuff about my life in this stage, and I know like yeah no shit, but when i have a recurring dream it stays the same just with minor changes, if the dream started when i was a fucking virgin and it contained stuff that was actively in my virgin life that’s exactly how i’m gonna dream it now it doesn’t matter if ’ve already moved on yk, so that kinda freaks me out

Yesterday while I was doing the reading another friend told me something to the effect of:: “and aren’t you afraid? yk, of a spirit latching onto you?” la mande a volar vrd ni le hice caso, but now with this dream i’m thinking damn maybe a spirit did latch onto my ass idk

i think is also important for you guys to know that i have ocd so i might be overthinking about this but umm yk, any recommendations and what not would be greatly appreciated (should i post this somewhere else??)

english is not my first language if you couldnt tell.

(this is a throwaway, if i don’t answer questions in the blink of an eye i beg of you to have mercy over me)