19 [F4M] #Anywhere/online not so experienced little in search for a playful, caring daddy to have fun with

Hi:) I hope you're all doing good! As the title says, I am a not so experienced little. I've had a couple online dynamics but none of them have worked out so far, and here I am, yet again, making another attempt lol. Alright, sob story (not really) aside, I'm 19, 5'4, south asian, on the chubby side I'd say, and an undergrad student. I love watching movies, having music playing majority of the time, going on walks, learning about random new stuff, reading, coloring, and even a little bit of crocheting although I'm extremely new to it. While I understand the importance of the basic small talk when meeting someone new, I'm not the biggest fan of it simply because most people really just don't ask more questions and ugh I don't know I'd just much rather have a long and interesting conversation about which glitter color would taste the best than just be asked what my favorite color is and have no other discussion of it. I don't know if any of that even made sense but I typed quite a bit so I will NOT be deleting all that. Just know if you decide to send a chat, this is what you're in for lol.
On that note, lemme talk about what I seek as I make this post. First and foremost, something monogamous with clean and open communication. Every time I've tried this out before has ended up becoming emotionally heavy, because I can be a really sensitive person with a lot of stuff just happening to me lol, making it feel too much for the other person to be with me, so tread with caution ig? Um I need some help slipping into that foggy, warm headspace. I need a lot of softness for that, a little patronizing works too (when it doesn't come from a mean place ofc), just anything that makes me feel little helps. I can have some bratty moments, if you can even call them that, I just really like saying no and asking why. Oh and I cry, like, a lot, so again tread with caution. I can be a bit too needy for attention sometimes too, oops. I wouldn't be surprised if there's a time difference, all I ask for is reassurances because I tend to get into my head a lot. I don't expect us to be talking all the time, everyone has their own lives and stuff to do, but again open communication and reassurances are my solution for it, and just enough talking so that we both know the other's not going anywhere. I'd really like it if you're soft, but also know when and how to be stern (not mean though, please). I absolutely love it when someone rants to me about their interests, be it anything, even if i don't know much about it. I love listening as much as I love talking. I think it's pretty obvious by now that what I want isn't just something to satisfy a kink but rather something that becomes a space for me and for you. I know that being a caregiver can be exhausting at times, and if that happens, I am always always accommodating as long as it doesn't hurt the dynamic we've created and also doesn't cause either of us anymore stress. I want this to be a space for both of us to be ourselves.
Even though this will be an online dynamic, I understand that physical attraction plays quite a part for many people, it does for me too to some extent. I don't have much of a preference except that I'd like for you to be at least a good few inches taller than me, and being physically fit is always fun (quite a hypocritical statement when I'm not fit myself, I know). We don't have to share pictures right off the bat, I like it better do after we've got a good vibe going with the conversation, but still early on enough so that even if either one of us wants to back out on account of not being physically attracted, it doesn't hurt the other. OH also, I don't mind an age gap but I don't think I'll be comfortably with anyone over 30-ish, simply because I feel it makes the power imbalance a little too risky.
The post ran longer than I initially planned for it too, I apologize for that (not). But if you stayed and read all of this, first of all, woah that patience level is amazing. Secondly, do send a chat:) I will say that I won't entertain any chat that hasn't read my post completely. Uh just to verify that, tell me what glitter do you think would taste the best and what do you imagine the taste would be?