Just over it.

I just want to be done. I've been on it over a year now. Almost 2. I have 15 month old baby girl and I feel like being on this is stopping me from being better. I sweat CONSTANTLY which makes me uncomfortable, so being outside or inside and playing with her is so uncomfortable, I find myself getting so distracted, and she deserves so much better. I just cry thinking about it. I've been SO emotional over it. I just am over it. I dont feel free anymore. I absolutely fucking hate it.

But the fear of withdrawal is the only thing that is holding me back.

6 years ago I cold turkeyed off of like 245mgs. It was horrid. After a week I took a subconscious, which threw me into precipitated withdrawal, and had to take kpins to lessen it. After 8 days I was able too take subs. But the withdrawal and taper off subs was so easy to me compared to methadone.

And I'd do it again if I could, but now I have an active and healthy 15 month old. Im a single mom, staying in a domestic violence shelter because her dad just isn't a good man. I have no help and im just stuck, and scared.

Any advice please.