Heres a droppers Rant which i never ever wanted to post, but yall tell(check body)

Drop acha jaa rha tha phir pata chala ki i dont want this at all. Abh padhai nhi hori

Context(Its important): Hey so from JandK, I am a tech geek who loves gamedev specifically and wants to do it professionally. NOT AS A HOBBY

I come from a good family and its not like my parents need money or i need to support my family financially so i need to join a college.
I already know gamedev. Been doing since i was preteen. I know webdev too and might lean towards Cybersec for stable career.
But i dont understand why i need jee or college for it, apart from the financial stability.

Please help me. Its not like I dont like studies, I love PCM, yes all of em. But this short tricks and shit I cant do it. If i understand a topic i like going into depth. Jee is something different of a pressure and i dont like it all.

Even if i join college my artistic interest will prolly die and i will grind high GPA and better placement cuz of fees and stable career. That would launch me into corporate hell. Then family ofc and I would think of THE ROAD NOT TAKEN.
IDk man I am so confused sometimes i wanna go to college but its like 70-30 70 for dropout and 30 for college. I cant even tell my parents and dont even have courage cuz idk what i wanna do myself
Though i agree having a placeholder degree is imp so i was thinking about BITS online BS CS degree side by side but idk.
SO please help me out......