I can’t get myself to get a job as a new grad

Im 21 and I graduated nursing school like 3-4 months ago now and I honestly did really well, I graduated with a 3.8 and passed my NCLEX immediately after

but.. now that I finished something like clicked in my head and the thought of going to work as a nurse actually gives me such bad anxiety that I can’t even think about it..

So i’ve applied to 0 jobs, and i have moments of clarity where i’m thinking like wtf am i even worried about this is such a cool interesting job and i’ve wanted this forever

but those thoughts last like an hour and then I put 0 effort into starting ANYY kind of job search, I like have a trauma response to anything nursing even though i was completely fine in school

literally what do I do, do I just apply and say fuck it to my mental health or like…. give it time or just go ahead and find another career
I would look for a easier nursing job like school or outpatient but tbh they dont exist 😍😍 so yeah help