Genderfluid-transgender dysphoria something?

Hey people of genderfluidity (do u say it like that?), I‘m currently 14 years old, biologically male and live in Germany. When i was in second or third grade I realised I was something but not cis. At first I thought I was trans then a femboy and now I‘m pretty sure I‘m genderfluid because sometimes I like to boymode. I only came out to my best friend (f).
So I want to start hrt as soon as possible so I get boobs but have strong autism and social disabilities so it‘s pretty hard for me to talk about it but this isn‘t the topic of this post.
For a few months (or years I can‘t remember) now I often think of getting bottom surgery at some point because most time, my thing makes me dysphoric. But sometimes I also feel like „Man, this thing is cool“.
Any advice or similar experience or something?