I regret getting back with my ex.

A few months ago we had a fight, but I was thinking he would come to shout out all the things but he didn't. I was getting frustrated, so I told him, "I don't want this relationship," and he replied, "As your wish."

I just had a question on my mind: What kind of relationship was I in? I mean, why didn't he even ask once why I didn't want to stay in the relationship? After a week, I tried not to text him, but I messaged him, "You have some of your stuff here, come take it." When he actually came over, he didn't say sorry, didn't ask why I was angry, and didn't check in on me at all—he just grabbed his things and left. It was so rude, and it hurt like hell that he didn't even care enough to ask what was wrong.and it left me questioning what kind of relationship I was in So, I asked my friend to message him and ask why he didn't say sorry to her. He told her, "She has too much attitude, let it be, I don't want to go." I controlled myself a lot after that, but then I wrote a very long paragraph and sent it to him, and I blocked him because I thought he would reach out and ask what happened. But he did nothing. Then one night, I called him and told him why are you ending a three-year relationship over such a stupid reason. .. you don't come and shouted all the things you messed up..he said he was also angry then after that we talked and shouted all the things..

Today, when we made a plan to meet at his house, I had his phone and was just scrolling through it. I saw that he sent our chats to his cousin's sister. I went and read all the messages. He shared our fight topics with her and asked her what to do next. He even sent my long paragraph message, which he didn't even read himself!

We had a problem regarding his mother, so I had told him that I will not live with her, and when we get married, we will live separately. He told this to his cousin, and she replied, "(woh ldki tere liye achi nhi hbtu usse dur rahe bht toxic h khtm kr de relation bht toxic ho jayega Tera liye abhi tohra prblm hoga baad me acha lagega you deserve better she is not for you she need to change his mind)That girl is not good, stay away from her. Any girl who is trying to separate you from your mother is very toxic." She said I need to change my mind.

When I saw these messages, I broke from the inside, you know? He never shares our chats with anyone, but this time he did, and he asked her what to do. It hurts me so much. After that, we had a fight. I took his phone and deleted my voice note where I was crying and saying, "Why are you leaving me? You said you would never leave me." After all of this, he said sorry, saying, "It's my first time, I will not do this again!..but now I don't want to talk to him because when I was crying for him in call and he shared these things with his cousin..I mean how can you share these things or puch rhe ho ki roo rhi h kya kru bata de..