I like him for alm 5 yrs now idk what to do

Bruhh idk y I can't move on from smtg that never existed...he was in my classes when I first met him n i really liked him

I thought it's jst a short period crush n would go away in a few days

But he noticed I was staring at him n he'd make eye contact

We never actually talked but i think he knew I liked him a lot igg

N he too did some small intentional things cause he was having fun igg dkk

I always thought he was out of my league cause he really does look great so we never actually talked like i didn't make a move Obv but he knew

Soo these things continued till my classes

N then i thought I wont see him ever again

BUTTT

we ended up in the same clg

N i was kinda embarrassed so i decided to ignore him

I feel bad for that

Like he did try to talk kindof but i ignored 😭

N i thought I'm over him

But whenever I see him I still feel smtg

He is kindof sweet but whenever he tried smiling or saying hi i panicked n ignored 😭 cause I felt he knows so he jst wants to tease me

Like i gen think he is too good for me sometimes (he actually looks good to others also not jst me)

N I also think he might be with someone I'm not sure

Butt ig I still like him n dk what he thinks n it hurts sm

(Ps:i have never dated bef like i didn't even try)

Pls don't be rude like I'm not so desperate but dk how I feel exactly