I have considered Christianity again and have been feeling some anxiety about hell being real

I have felt a pull towards Christianity for a long time and have gone through some phases when I considered myself a Christian. Tried to live as if God was real but I'm not sure I have ever actually believed.

I think I'm agnostic at the moment but I have been more curious about Christianity again. There's a lot of things I like, the idea of a loving God who cares about us, there are a lot of beautiful stories in the Bible, good advice on how to live a good life.

But the possibility of Christianity being real scares me because then I'd have to consider the possibility of hell being real too. Not because I'm worried for myself, as I probably should be, but because the idea of my family going there causes me distress. And I'm aware that you can be a Christian without believing in hell. I'm aware of universalism. But there are still many Christians who do believe in hell and it seems like they have good reasons for believing in it.

I hope they're wrong but I'm not intelligent enough to tell who is right.

I assume that people here are going to tell me that I can be a Christian without believing in hell but to me it would seem like picking and choosing which parts of Christianity I like. Because if some objective truth actually exists, I can't just pick and choose, right? It makes sense to me that if Christianity is real, some parts of it will make me uncomfortable.

I suppose I should do my research but it seems like a very time consuming task. Hearing out different arguments, fact checking them and so on. I don't really have time for that. Or rather, I don't want to spend a lot of time on that. I also don't think I'm knowledgeable enough to tell whether the arguments are actually good or not.

I have no way of knowing what is actually real. So I just have to choose what to believe, who to trust. I'm so confused about all the different beliefs and views within Christianity that I just want to forget it all. Because my life as an agnostic is very good too.