In losing my identity

What am i anymore? Im acting so desperate for love,

Back with this again. I've done this once and im tired.

Im only 14, i get that its normal, these feelings, but im going out of my way for some girl. Altering my personality for someone. Why?

Im getting bad grades, bad EVERYTHING

Who am i anymore.

I wanna be me again. It doesnt matter much to that girrl becausw she just sees me as a hb. Im fallimg in love but not really. I got rejected once, and now im desperate.

I never ever seen this girl that way, not lustfully but i genuenly love how easily we got to know each other soooo easily, we talked once and it was flow state from then on.

Its tearing me apart now, im slowly losing everything.

Im tired. We talk every single day.

Its ripping me into peices, im debating about this relationship, if shes just a Friend or if im delusional,

She catches all my references so easily,

I have an exam in 3 weeks i didnt study anything this semester. Im tearing my life apart

This chase for love or wherever